So... I created this blog months ago believing I would follow throughout my pregnancy and beyond but Ella is born and this is my first post so BLOG FAIL on my part but here I am.
Officially four weeks into motherhood I must admit I love it. When someone else is holding Ella and I see her from a distance my heart melts and I may get a little jealous that I am not holding her in that moment. She gave me more smiles today than she ever has and I am so excited for when she smiles intentionally. She has lost her new born look and is getting chunkier everyday. Im getting better but at first when she would cry really hard after we took her home it would make me cry. I am beginning to understand how much love a mother has for her children I would do anything to make her happy and comfortable and safe. When she was first learning how to eat she would choke on the milk and cough and gasp and it scared me so bad. I can understand more now why someone would be a paranoid mother because you don't want anything to hurt your baby. Lucky for me... I can see further down the road unlike some people and let my kid eat dirt because its good for them emotionally and good for their immune system. I want my kids to be rough and tumble so they aren't wimpy when they grow up but I can see it would be so hard to do the kind of things that teach your kids a lesson.
Im sure being a good parent will take a lot of work and it will be hard not to spoil Ella with attention. I don't think Ill really spoil my kids with things but I think its easier and worse that I may spoil atleast the first and last with attention. Laura my sister-in-law said speaking of her 9-month old that she is so used to giving her daughter whatever will stop her from crying and how easy it is to get used to that. She atleast recognized it so she can start preventing Chloe from wrapping her parents around her chubby little finger and being a little more independant. I really hope I dont spoil my kids and I can be a good well rounded parent.
I love my life and my sweet little family. I love Jeff so much. He is being such a great Dad and help for me. I love watching him with Ella. We are having a blast with our little doll we can dress up and pass around. It is crazy how much our lives have changed in such a short time but I wouldn't go back for the world.
